Today was actually really cool. So today we had confession, and the priest that I love love love love from my church was there so I went to go talk to him since I’m completely comfortable with him. And the last time I confessed (in January) I was with him and he told me to do something nice for someone I didn’t like. And I told him I would.
…well 2 months later, I still haven’t. I wish I can :(( but I told that to the priest today and he was like “look, I understand that you can’t just text another teenage girl saying sorry, but remember from bible study 3 weeks ago?” And I said yeah. Well. It was about if someone slaps your right cheek, turn around so they can slap your left one. And walk away smiling and tell them you will pray for them.
I mean. I don’t let her slap my other cheek. I don’t smile at her, BUT I am always always always always always praying for her to make sure she is at least happy and for God to lead her to true happiness. I don’t like her, but I still want the best for her. It’s hard to explain, but it’s true.
I don’t want her to be sad, or in pain, or in any of that. I wouldn’t wish that upon ANYONE no matter how bad they hurt me or others around me.
But I’m upset with myself. I really should do something nice for this girl. But father wants me to write her a letter/text her saying sorry for putting friendship to the side, and for not growing together.
I don’t know. I really want to do that because come on. What’s the worst thAt can happen? And if father has had to tell me to do this TWICE already, I feel like it’s God working through him to make me do this “deed” so I should. But I still don’t want to because ugh.